01/21/2015- A Huge Milestone for me.............
I wasn't quite sure when this day would come for me, but it just felt like it was time. Taylor is 2 years and 7 months now, before we know it we will be planning her 3rd Birthday and I just felt like it was time to finally transition Taylor and Brady's room to just Taylors room ( Brady's Closet and drawers had remained untouched until now), But Today we will remove those items and package them nicely. I really didn't remember just how ready I was for him, but today was a great reminder:( The pain swirled back, the heartbreak resurfaced and tears began to flow-But also a sweet reminder of how excited we were to prepare for him. Taylor helped me as we emptied his drawers, she got all of his socks, his towels, wash cloths, burp cloths, etc. Taylor began to notice that a lot of Brady's things were exactly like hers just Blue instead of Pink. It was so sweet, she would go and get her blanket that matched his and her cup labels that matched his and her brush that matched his, and so on..........
While this was a very hard task I felt that it was right, it was a symbol to me that God was telling me it is okay, it is time:)) I can only dream that either one day I may have another son that will be so honored to use all of Brady's Items, and if that isn't so then someone else will have a special child whom I will hand these items down to. I smile when I think of seeing these items being used one day;)
While we continue to talk of Brady and tell Taylor about Brady, we know that she doesn't completely grasp who he is, but I tell you one thing she sure does have a connection with him that we may never fully understand completely. She periodically speaks of him as though she feels him. We went to talk to him at the cemetery, and as we pull in she says " We are here to see Brady"..... Well this particulary time on Christmas Day we went, visited and pack up and we were all pretty quite pulling out and as we hit the Exit, Taylor says out of No where " Brady is Happy"!!!! Justin and I looked at eachother and just smiled and we said Brady is Happy;)) WE KNOW HE IS...... AND SHE CONFIRMED IT!!! There are times that you question your decisions when you are faced with making end of life decisions for your child~~~~~ But there is no doubt, BRADY IS HAPPY!!!!!
Taylor is so much fun.... She is Amazing!! She is Definitely 2 1/2, and is definitely testing the waters, and definitely spending some time in TIME OUT, But I am so grateful that she is doing these things b/c as we know without her strength, will to live and determination she might not have been doing these things. We love you Taylor Reese and look forward to enjoying every stage with you!!!!!
Taylor having a snack and Calling Mandy........
A few of Brady's Things.....
Some more special items.....
