Thursday, October 25, 2012
WOW!! 2 month Angel-versary!!!
10/25/12-
I cried quite a bit today!!! I can't believe my precious little boy, Taylor's precious twin brother has been gone from us for 2 months. Wow, 2 months ago today Justin and I held Brady Wiles as tight as we could as his little heart slowly quit beating and as he took his last breath. I will never forget feeling his sweet beautiful warm body become cold in my arms. I will never forget his smell as I was stealing sweet little kisses from my little boy!!! I still can't wash the clothes that I was wearing or that he was wearing the night he passed because I can still smell him!!!!! Oh how I love and miss that little boy!!!
I did something this week that took alot of courage for me! A friend of mine from college had a precious little boy and they named him "Brady", so I sent a box full of all of my sweet Brady's monogrammed items that he never got to use so that a sweet family could have them. Very Hard, but at the same time I smiled knowing that a sweet baby would be using Brady's things. Bittersweet!!!!!
Although I know that Brady is living some kind of fabulous life amongst heavens other beautiful angels, and I would never bring him back to fight and struggle with illness after illness. But, I still can't help but wonder what it would be like if I could just see and hold him one more time. I heard that song "If you came back from heaven" and I just started to wonder.......
Well Lil miss Taylor is growing and thriving, she is weighing in at 9lbs 13 oz. She amazes me everyday with her smiles, periodically rolling over, pushing up, etc...... She is truly my little miracle!!!! I love that girl!!!!!
I cried quite a bit today!!! I can't believe my precious little boy, Taylor's precious twin brother has been gone from us for 2 months. Wow, 2 months ago today Justin and I held Brady Wiles as tight as we could as his little heart slowly quit beating and as he took his last breath. I will never forget feeling his sweet beautiful warm body become cold in my arms. I will never forget his smell as I was stealing sweet little kisses from my little boy!!! I still can't wash the clothes that I was wearing or that he was wearing the night he passed because I can still smell him!!!!! Oh how I love and miss that little boy!!!
I did something this week that took alot of courage for me! A friend of mine from college had a precious little boy and they named him "Brady", so I sent a box full of all of my sweet Brady's monogrammed items that he never got to use so that a sweet family could have them. Very Hard, but at the same time I smiled knowing that a sweet baby would be using Brady's things. Bittersweet!!!!!
Although I know that Brady is living some kind of fabulous life amongst heavens other beautiful angels, and I would never bring him back to fight and struggle with illness after illness. But, I still can't help but wonder what it would be like if I could just see and hold him one more time. I heard that song "If you came back from heaven" and I just started to wonder.......
Well Lil miss Taylor is growing and thriving, she is weighing in at 9lbs 13 oz. She amazes me everyday with her smiles, periodically rolling over, pushing up, etc...... She is truly my little miracle!!!! I love that girl!!!!!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
A hard day......
10/11/12-
Well I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would lose a child and therefore have to plan a funeral for my child, but I have had to do both:( Today I finally had to do it, go and pick out Brady's head stone. I have been putting if off because then that meant that I still had something to do for him, and once it is ordered then it is final!!! I know that it is already final, but for some reason this last task just feels like it is really the end!!!
I never imagined how hard picking a head stone would be, I want it to be perfect and I mean perfect, b/c my precious little boy was perfect!!!!!! It is going to be beautiful, and to make it that much more special, he will have a granite foot plate with a sweet note engraved from Taylor!!!!!!
As for Taylor, she is doing fantastic!!! She had a great appointment yesterday!!!!
Well I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would lose a child and therefore have to plan a funeral for my child, but I have had to do both:( Today I finally had to do it, go and pick out Brady's head stone. I have been putting if off because then that meant that I still had something to do for him, and once it is ordered then it is final!!! I know that it is already final, but for some reason this last task just feels like it is really the end!!!
I never imagined how hard picking a head stone would be, I want it to be perfect and I mean perfect, b/c my precious little boy was perfect!!!!!! It is going to be beautiful, and to make it that much more special, he will have a granite foot plate with a sweet note engraved from Taylor!!!!!!
As for Taylor, she is doing fantastic!!! She had a great appointment yesterday!!!!
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
10/2/2012-
As I sit here today watching my sweet little miracle enjoying her tummy time I begin to tear up just reflecting on what the past 4 months have been for us. Wow, we are so incredibly blessed to have this 2lb 5oz miracle in our arms. She is growing so strong everyday!!!!! It is hard to believe that she had such a rough start.
Not a day goes by that I don't ask myself what it would be like or think to myself how great it would be to have the chaos of Brady and Taylor screaming at once. I wanted that chaos so bad!!!!! But I now know that God had a different plan!!! Everyday as I pray and read, I am healing and growing from what Brady taught me.
I am enjoying getting involved with organizations to aid in my healing process and I am so excited about our family involvement in the March of Dimes and look forward to our walk this weekend for March for Babies!!!!!! Please take the time to follow my new photos of our twin Journey!!!!
Today is a great day- my Dad and my Brothers Birthday: Happy Birthday Daddy and Michael!!!
Brady Wiles Jenkins Journey- 6/12/12-8/25/12!!!! Our Guardian Angel
As I sit here today watching my sweet little miracle enjoying her tummy time I begin to tear up just reflecting on what the past 4 months have been for us. Wow, we are so incredibly blessed to have this 2lb 5oz miracle in our arms. She is growing so strong everyday!!!!! It is hard to believe that she had such a rough start.
Not a day goes by that I don't ask myself what it would be like or think to myself how great it would be to have the chaos of Brady and Taylor screaming at once. I wanted that chaos so bad!!!!! But I now know that God had a different plan!!! Everyday as I pray and read, I am healing and growing from what Brady taught me.
I am enjoying getting involved with organizations to aid in my healing process and I am so excited about our family involvement in the March of Dimes and look forward to our walk this weekend for March for Babies!!!!!! Please take the time to follow my new photos of our twin Journey!!!!
Today is a great day- my Dad and my Brothers Birthday: Happy Birthday Daddy and Michael!!!
Brady Wiles Jenkins Journey- 6/12/12-8/25/12!!!! Our Guardian Angel
Taylor Reese Jenkins Journey to come........
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